another blog. am i crazy?

I haven't completely given up, I'm still pluggin along. I haven't been to the gym all month but I have been to the pool, so that's better than nothing. I do laps and other exercises, but I haven't been running. We're on a break. The past month or so I've been doing the Lemonade Diet/Master cleanse. It's been pretty rough and I really didn't make much progress on it except for losing and then gaining the weight back. It's not a bad diet, it's just VERY HARD! It is effective, but it's just not right for me. This girl needs to eat! Anyway I decided to start a weight loss blog w/some friends (my sisters & cousins) for us all to be able to go to for support, tips, ideas, and try to stay accountable to each other and lose some weight!! So here is, my new blog

I don't love the name and would like to change it as soon as I can come up with something clever. I will let you know if I change it. The few of you that actually read this, lol. If you have any websites or recipes or anything else that you find helpful please pass it along and I will share it on the blog.

So I've been having a very hard time sticking with the running (slowly jogging). I have a million excuses as to why but doesn't everybody? I need to figure this out. Jill, Jolyn, Christy, you have been SO supportive and I hate to ask for more but I need more.  :) In a perfect world I need someone to come to my house everyday and help me get my buns in gear. Since that's not gonna happen I need to do it myself and knowing that I have you guys to hold me accountable helps. I feel so bad that I haven't done my best and you guys are just cheering me on telling me what a good job I'm doing, but I'm not. I don't know what 'it' is that will do it. I know what I need to do but I'm pretty good at talking myself out of doing it. Today is a perfect example. I had the day off. I could have gone running, done a video, shoot I could have even gone for a walk. But instead I did nothing. It is a holiday ya know. I should get the day off right? No! I've been taking too many days off as it is, but as usual I was too lazy to get up and do something. Anything. So tomorrow is Tuesday and there is no reason I can't go to the gym. I'm sure I will find a reason between now and then. Thursday is the only day I really can't do anything since Shelby has her dance recital . Cody's on a campout for the week, Dylan is done with scouts for the summer but I'm sure I can find an excuse not to go this week. I don't know how people do it! Once I think I'm getting into a routine, something happens and I go off track. I need to be on the track! Moving my but!! I'm still trying to do the couch to 5k but I'm overwhelmed and I feel like a loser. I should be done by now or close to it but I've slacked off way too much!!! I'm stuck on week 4 or 5, I can't even remember. There is a 20 minute run coming up and since I haven't really been doing it every week, I'm scared to continue. I don't want to be a quitter. I want to be able to run w/out feeling like I'm gonna die, and most importantly I need to lose weight and get in shape. Do I pause the couch to 5k and work on losing the weight or do I continue with it and do both? I feel like if I stop the 5k I'm a quitter, but I think it's too much right now and that I get overwhelmed by trying to do both. The forum I belong to is so supportive and I don't just want to stop. They have been so wonderful and we've all supported and motivated each other along the way. I don't want to let them down. The boys just got out of school so I feel like this is the time to really do it. And then there's my battle with food. It's daily. Hourly, minute by minute. I always think about it and what's gonna be my next meal. I'm like a druggie. A foodie and not in the cute fun way. If you kow of a Genie in a bottle, please send him over. I've got some wishes I need granted.

I'm back!

Ok, ok, ok! I did it today. Well kind of.
It was so hard! That's what I get though! I only could do 3 minutes running (slooooooooooooowwwwwly) at a time. I was hoping to get the 5 minute run in but I just couldn't make it! I don't know why I do this to myself. I guess I like to do things the hard way. If I would have at least gone 1 or 2 days last week it would've been much easier. Oh well, I did it today and I will keep it up. Thanks Jill and Jolyn for your support through this! Along with you guys and my friends on the active community, I would not have kept this going. Oh here is the quote I heard and I loved it: The best way to get your rear end off the couch is to put your feet on the ground and start moving! So that's what I'm doing!

So much to blog about, so little time! I still have Holli's visit to talk about, and now there's Womens conference. It was so fun, way better than I expected and I got to visit w/my Utah families!! I will give you more info and maybe even some pictures soon, I promise!
One thing that is kind of disappointing is that I did not make any time to do any running. How do you Utahans do it? We saw so many runners out there-even in the cold weather! Everybody was running! I was not used to the altitude, and oh ya all the walking. I knew there would be a lot of walking but I didn't expect the altitude to be so rough on me. I'll be ready for it next year. Oh yes, there will be a next year!
 So about the running. Ya. Well I started back up on Tuesday and I wasn't about to dive back in to the 5 minute runs, so I did 3 minutes run, 3 minutes walk. It went great but today I tried to do it again and I couldn't! I read somewhere that to make the treadmill more like running outside you should put it at a 1% incline. So I did that and I only lasted for 2 minute runs. That 1% doesn't seem like much but it is!! That's my excuse anyway but to make up for not running as much I walked a 5k which I'm very embarrased to say took me o-n-e hour. Not good for me at all, and I really wasn't trying like I should have but whatever. There's a lot of room for improvement!
I've been so stressed with our new drama of having a full fledged teenager in the house, I don't even know what to do! That boy just doesn't listen to my advice and I feel like I give pretty good advice! Why don't they listen? It's so much easier for everyone if the just LISTEN!!! Why must they do what they want to do and not use that cute little brain in their heads?? Ugh!!! I hear that boys are easier than girls at this age so I'm really scared for whats to come! Whose idea was it to ever get rid of chastity belts? I'm all for them!

kids!

I firmly believe that kids should be locked up from the age of 13 through ??? I don't know, 25! He may not make it to 14, cuz I'm gonna kill him!

runnin, runnin

I didn't have time to make it to the gym Saturday so I just ran in my neighborhood. I don't have any fancy equipment to tell me when to run or walk so I just decided to run every other song. It's the first time in 2 weeks that i went running (more like a sloooooooooooooow jog) 3 times in a week like I'm supposed to so I was just happy that I got out there and did something.
Today I continued on to the ever dreaded week 5:
day 1 is run 5 min, walk 3 min  ( do that 3 times)
day 2 is run 8 minutes, walk 5 minutes ( do that 3 times)
day 3 run 20 minutes.
I don't know about day 2 and 3. I may have to do day 1 a few times especially since I'll be going to Utah this week for womens conference. I hope to find time to fit some runs in there. I know I'll be doing a lot of walking but I want to stick to the program as much as I can. We'll see how that goes. I'm pretty excited to go w/my sis & cousins and visit family while we're there. I think it's been 11 years since i've been, myabe eve longer. I can't remember. Anyway it will be an adventure for sure!
I need to update you on so much stuff I just can't find the time and I need to get ready for my trip so wish me luck on the running and I'll catch up when I get back!

on again!

Thank you so much for the advice guys! It really helps me to get or stay motivated knowing you guys are out there too. And to think I motivate you is still crazy to me! You guys are running rock stars, but like Jill said it wasn't always that way, LOL. Do you guys run everyday, every other day, a few times a week??? Treadmill or outside? I run on the treadmill but I feel like I need to do some outside runs at least once a week.

I tackled week 4 day 3 today. I am not giving up!! It was pretty tough, especially the second interval! I wanted to stop so many times but I heard you guys in my head and just took it one step at a time and powered through! I've finally come to terms with the fact that just doing this 3 times a week I'm not gonna see much of a weight loss if any. I've been telling myself that I need to do more so today I did my Jillian Michael's Shred video. I usually wait until everybody goes to bed until I do it but by that time I'm tired and I just don't feel like it!! Well over the weekend Mike moved one of his game things upstairs so today I thought "Duh!! I can do my video now since I have the downstairs to myself!!" So now I have no excuse not to do it a few times a week. I have a love/hate relationship with that woman! Her video really does work and I have seen results when I keep it up but just like with any kind of program, you have to DO IT-and it's hard!!! Besides I feel like I need to do something besides just the running to gear up for the upcoming harder weeks. One nice thing about the running is that I can make it through more and more of the Shred video w/out having to stop!! I took a sneak-peak at workout 2 and it looks TOUGH!!! I've been doing better on my diet during the week but the weekends are my downfall! I need to allow myself a reward meal during the weekend and not just turn it into a reward weekend eating whatever I want. I throw all my hard work out the window when I do that! I was reading some comments in the active community and one woman said "I don't want to get out of bed to exercise, but I don't want to be fat even more than that-so I got up and ran"!! That's exactly it! I will tell myself that every time I don't feel like working out. Moving is better (and easier) than being fat!!
Thanks for letting me ramble and very soon I will blog about what is actually going on in my life and Holli's visit! I better do it soon before I forget about all the fun we had.